I spent the past few days going through a box of journals I have stored in my garage. I felt a bit of writer’s block when it came to this blog. I felt maybe the journals would prompt my writing. As I read through my journals and notebooks, I had a big realization. I have a lot of information, good information, however, the information I have studied and collected has kept me in a loop. A loop of feeling I will never master all of the concepts, never completely understand all of the information I’ve gathered, never quite able to formulate my notes into sentences.
Although I do not feel genius in any of these areas. I just keep plugging along. Last night, I was lying in bed with my husband and I mentioned this observation and he said “that is a blog post right there”! Yes, yes it is. Why do I feel the need to be perfect before taking any action? That is a way I have kept myself stuck. Essentially, a method of procrastination.
Today, I am releasing the procrastination and seeking of perfection to take a step toward one of my goals. This goal of writing is something I have stopped and started many times and now is the time to be consistent with what it is I want to do. I have no idea where my blog will go and I really have no idea why I feel compelled to write and share my story, but I do. The only way to make steps toward the future is to start walking. I guess this is one of the lessons I have from my journals– the journals are heavy, messy, and consume a lot of space. Now is the time to let them go. I have the information in my head and my heart, and the idea of perfecting the information is just barrier on my path. If blogging is my true goal, just do it!
The next step would be to take that concept and apply it to everything else I am striving for. Dietary goals, fitness goals, relationship goals, work goals, parenting goals, etc. I may never be perfect, however I am doing the best I can with the information I have gathered along the way.